After all of this shit, I actually felt I couldn’t trust anybody. I began to speak to PJ again on msn and we decided to meet up to go to the beach, just the two of us. We were there all afternoon, we were in the see and when the sun began to come down we went beside the palm trees and just lied there watching the sun, talking about anything, and in one look we just kissed. We just did it, we couldn’t avoid it. He said if I wanted to get back with him, but then we thought of all the problems and we said to get back together but in secret, so we did. Marian ask me on msn if I would forgive her, that she was really sorry and that she really didn’t mean anything she said or did, so I forgave her (I know it wasn’t very smart but we had been best friends for years, I wasn’t going to let us fall apart). The three of us used to meet up, me, PJ and Mary. Until one day on the bus Mary was sitting at the front and we were at the back, he came to me and said I don’t like us being like this because I really want to kiss you now and I can’t, I just laughed and said it’s the only thing we can do. We got to the skate park and I was standing against the wall, he came to me and said if you don’t kiss me I’ll kiss you, and he came and kissed me, and I wasn’t gonna move. Mary just stood there thinking that she kne that was gonna happen sooner or later, so why not just then?

In mid summer my friend Mary had a party at her house at the beach and invited everybody in my group of friends, including PJ.  When I got there Marian wasn’t talking to me, I didn’t know why and she wouldn’t tell me. She was walking around the house ignoring me and I was walking behind her asking her what the fuck was wrong and she was just ignoring me. So what did I do? I went in to one of the rooms in the house and Luke, one of my friends kept bringing in  cups of alcohol, and like I was fucked up I just drank them all, I ended up fucking drunk. When I came out of the room I had another few shots with Luke and I went in to the living room. Marian was there and she was making out with PJ, i was like what the fuck is happening? So like I was really drunk I just began to cry, but it wasn’t  a normal crying it was like a screaming crying really loudly wile I ran around the house. At one point of the night I was lying on the floor crying and PJ came over and said: “Why are you crying?” I said it wasn’t nothing he said that people don’t cry for nothing and he came closer I came closer and we kissed, I think that was our most cute kiss ever. When I opened my eyes Marian was looking and she said how could I be such a bitch? I got pissed off and went back in to the room I was before and PJ came in with me. We were both lying on the bed looking at each other, no  kissing, no sex, just looking in to each other’s eyes. At one point he turned around and began to be sick, I turned to the other side, brought my phone out, opened it and I was sick inside my phone ( I still cant believe I did that, but it’s one of the problems of alcohol). From the house we decided to go to the beach, wasn’t a good idea, I ended up in the sea with Rebecca. When we all got back to the house Mary’s mum was there. She said that we could sleep there but we had to leave early in the morning. They all fell asleep straight away but PJ and I were up all night talking. At seven in the morning Mary’s mum knocked on the door and we all had to leave. I was with Rebecca alone for a wile and she told me that Marian had already planed to make out with PJ because I had been really bad to her and some more bullshit.

The problems all began when PJ told me that he might be going to a boarding school for 2 years and that he wouldn’t be coming back. I was completely sure that I would wait for him, but as it always happens in my town, everybody gets in and they all have to coment they all have to say something and they all talked shit about everything and we kept fighting. Every weekend we had a fight and we fixed it during the week, until this person from his school came over and told me that he had said that he didn’t really want to be with me, they kept saying things until I believed them, and summer was coming everybody said it’s better with no boyfriend really you will have more fun and he doesn’t deserve you, and like I did not know how to think by myself I did what I was told and I dumped him… that was one of the most difficult things I’d ever done. But the worst part was that after the relationship ended we wouldn’t talk to each other, we just ignored each other, so the boys went one way and the girls another.

Then at mid summer there was a big festival in my town so the big group met up there but we were still ignoring each other, at one point of the night this boy from my school stated dancing with me and he told me to go with him and like he was actually really cute I went and we got together, then I went back and kept on partying, no one knew anything of what happened, except my girlfriends.

In the next weeks  Marian told me that she wanted to still be friends with me, because that wasn’t a reason to end a really long friendship and it was only a boy, so they both of us tried to keep being friends, and we were, we actually were really good friends  Marian, Sofia , Diana (Marian’s sister) and me. The four of us went everywere together, we were best friends and then we would always meet up with PJ and his friends, we all were a big gang. It actually worked out pretty well for me because I could be with my boyfriend and at the same time I could be with my girls.

One day I was talking with some of me friends, they told  me  that PJ had said that I was really annoying and things like that. I got really annoyed with PJ, but I didn’t really tell him why I was annoyed with him. So he got cross with me and he sent me an sms saying that they should brake up, I only said okay because I was still annoyed with him for what he had said. Then my best friend, David, came and told me that PJ was crying because everything they had told me wasn’t true and he had punched a tree and his hand was bleeding . So I called him and asked him if he wanted to get back together, he said yes. That night I stayed to sleep at Marian’s  house, so the next morning PJ came and we were so well together, that evening we all went to  Pj’s cousins house and PJ and I ended up gettin’ together in a bed and with no t-shirts off. I know it sounds really childish but I was I was really childish at that time. After that everything was just like paradise..

Hi I’m Emma and this is a story about me when i was only 13 years old and I is really innocent and shy. This boy comes in to my life and everything changes.

It all started when i was in the park with my friends and a group of boys from my school came over to say hello and they were with one boy that we didn’t know, his name was PJ and we all got on really well so the next friday we met up at PJ’s cousins house and one thing led to the other and we all ended up playing spin the bottle. That was my first kiss, yes it’s a bit pathetic but it ¡s what happenden. The Monday after that happenden I was talking to PJ on msn:

PJ: I have to leave but first I’ve got to tell you something or I’ll explode.

Emma: Yeah, tell me.

PJ: Would you go out with me?

Emma: (she thought about it for a wile and dicided) Yes I will.

The next day at school, my best friend Marian was anoyed with me so I went to ask her what was wrong and she said that she was inlove with PJ and I was the worst friend in the wolrd for doing that, but I had no idea of what Marian felt so it was’nt my fault. My group of friends in that moment said that Marian had no right to do what she did and that she was acting stupid so I shouldn’t really listen to what she said.